So, I have gotten somewhere

Someone brought a good point to my attention.... I could talk to an interior decorator or a psychologist. Perhaps they could even help me think about a way to make this project... A project....

An interior decorator would have to know something about the way a colour of a room would make someone feel... And a psychologist would be able to talk with me about previous studies or tests conducted... Therefore helping me get somewhere....

A Little Less Crazy

Well, today I'm a little less crazy, but I'm also a little less focused. It's Friday... That and I'm trying to break from the craziness and help others out some more...

I uploaded my website things... And I'm thinking about my key terms some more.... I'm not sure what to do for those, and I don't think the ones I have are accurate enough for my project.

Another short entry..... Wow...

We're all Mad here...

Ok, not only have I driven myself crazy with noticing colours waay more than ususal, but I'm driving Casey insane too. But right now my mind is swimming with words, colors, and over analytical ness! Like... AAARRRGGGHHHH!!!!

Like, if you've looked at the doors.... Look at them for a minute... then look at the whiteboard.
It's like the blinding white light of insanity is trying to pull you closer into it's clutches of DOOOOOOOOOM....

Or perhaps I am mearly losing my mind or over reacting. Either way, it's like Rawr....
Bright yello
Rich green
Blood red
Rust orange
colours.... everywhere.... EVERYWHERE!!!!

Who knew this could drive me crazy...

Getting somewhere?

THANK YOU SHANNON!!!! That's what I need... I need to start thinking about colours, I need other people to start telling me if colour even effects the way they think or feel. Remind me that there is purpose behind this project!!!

Either way though, for the last few days I have been paying more attention to my surroundings... More attention to the colours of things and how I may reflect upon them to discover how they might make me feel...

Like the color of the lockers disgusts me... It makes me think of fish paste or something. Rotten fish paste. If that is at all possible....

And thoughts like this lead me to wonder what combinations of colours might do to the human psyche or emotions. I've also been thinking about what colors might inspire certain emotions...

Think about it...

What is the colour of rebellion?

What is the colour of envy?

When you see that colour, do you feel that emotion?

Are words any more or less appealing when written in a different colour ?

Pink Yellow Blue Green red

Observation. . . . .

So, I'm sitting here, dwelling on my Week 4 entry and all of my other issues with this project and everything else.... And I happen to look at the doors. Like, the door of this room, the double doors that lead into the next room, the double closet doors... And I realize, they are a nice shade of red....
In my opinion that is....
And I'm thinking, I want to open those closet doors...
So I'm wondering.... Would I want to open them if they were a dark blue rather than a dark red?

And I've been looking at the wall... Like, it's white... But it's go specks of color... Does that therefore dim the insanity I feel when placed in a white room? Perhaps.... Then again, I now find those colored specks extremely distracting... I've never noticed them before O.O

But, this doesn't help me with color and emotion.... Not really at least...
I could say that the color of the doors makes me curious, or invokes mystery... But that's about it....

So this entry, is just me taking a step back from my spazzing out at everything... And trying to gather something that will help me....
I'm starting to think, that I just can't be helped.

So, if your reading this.... LOOK TO THE DOORS!!!!! What do you think? What do you feel?

Week 4

Ok, so the question is, How have I been spending my classtime? Well, to that I can only say that I've been walking in circles. I've been fretting over this, that, and the other thing... Posting huge rants in this journal, trying to get help, and going crazy. I have yet to even start my webliography, because I am unsure that the information I've been looking at even helps me at all, because I'm still not entirely sure of where I'm going with this.

And the other question, what have I learned? I've learned some basic facts about colour, and a few examples about how color may affect ones mood. Like, one site in particular would describe red as representing "energy, war, danger, strength, power, determination as well as passion, desire, and love."
I've learned that someone wanted to paint a prison pink to lesson agression.
I've learned that originally, pink was the color for newborn boys, and blue was the color for newborn girls... And it is that way in places like Germany today.
So basically, I probably haven't learned much... And I'm basically still right where I was not too long ago....

I've been thinking about key terms, about finding a person to interveiw, about the study/project all together... And I'll tell you, it's giving me a HUGE headache.

It's only the begining of class...

And I'm going to rant about how lost I am already =D
Actually though, I might have a few keyterms soon.... I still need to figure out where exactly I'm going with this though... Because, I could include the process in which color is seen, which would involve a lot of big words...
But that would over complicate things....
But, isn't this supposed to be complicated?
No... never mind.
I haven't even started my webliography because I don't know if what I have is usful!!!

And now I have an assignment to do....
So, this rant has been shortened...
darn.

Well, thats depressing

I've been spelling it wrong... It's colour.... I should have payed more attention to Dan's comment >_<

Anyways, I has a direction... Well, a task... Savido told me to focus on nothing but finding information. So I will do that =D

Wow... Another short journal entry.... Maybe the world is ending.

So I'm Kinda Really Majorly out of it Right Now

I'm still racking my brain over key terms and someone to interview.... I have no help with that one, and I have absolutely no idea.
This entry till be short. Simply stating that I am lost with my project of conducting a study... By the way... If it's a project about conducting a study about color and emotion... What do I do with my findings?
Oh wondrous.
So I'm completely lost, and feeling sick to my stomach. Not to mention paranoid and over stressed.

Still walking in circles here....

I don't think it's possible for me to have many keyterms...
And I'm still thinking about how Savido was talking about the fact that we will have to interveiw smeone.....
And if my project is conducting a study about it... What study am I conducting about it?
Does that then mean that my project is more of how to conduct a sudy?
Or is it still about the colors and emotions?
I don't know....
What I'm getting at though, is if my project is making a study about color vs emotion. Does my project become "How do I conuct a study about blah blah blah" or is it still "How does color effect ones emotions" ??

So yeah, I'm getting pretty dizzy over here >_<

AHA!!!!!

It is a study.
But my project would be to conduct a study about it!!!!!

That seriously just hit me.

So, theres a window over there......

I'm completely, 1000% spaztic right now... Everyone has a good point.... It does seem more like a study than a project, and I'm stressing myself out even more trying to figure it out. Truth is, I don't have much interest in anything else, and I reached this topic out of sheer randomness... And now I'm determined to prove that I can do something with it....

Gimme a week, I'll get completely sick of it.
Anywho... Shannon has some good points with the question of Emotion VS Color, does it really matter.... But I don't think I can get a person who normally wears bright colors to wear dark colors or vice verse.... It would be interesting, but that would be like blindfolding you for a week....

So, I'm lost again... And I'm confusing myself. I'm always confusing myself though so I guess there's nothing new there....

And, another issue I have with this.... I don't think there is an expert in color.... I don't think I would get any interview out of this topic.... And Arrrgggghhhhhhh!!!!
Is it Friday yet?

I need help still..... Lots of it.... Really....
I have no idea what to do about the interview factor
or the key terms factor
or the project factor
or the expert factor

So, I've concluded.... I'm pretty much back to square one for the..... 10th ? time....

Yay for floating in that dark void again =D

D=

Yay!

Ok, For some reaon I am unnaterally chipper O.o

But I'm writing to say that Savido didn't forget about me when she left the converation a bit before it really started so that she could remind us about something involving the military.

And I'm also writing this to talk about something she told me. In a school that she used to teach at, each floor was a different color. I don't know where I'm going in writing that though..... I recall her saying she didn't like being on the red floor though.....

Anyways, I'm still not sure if I am directing all of this twords color and emotion in regards to room color, clothes color, or..... I don't know....

Also, on that note, I don't even know how I can turn this into a project..... Like, what do I do? Construct a bunch of rooms from cardboard, paint them different colors and study people in them????? What if a person is clausterphobic???

And now, the thought process really begins.... Yay....

Here's the part where I pretend to know what I'm doing...

So, I'm still lost.... I've been trying to help others, but I think I only make them more lost....

I'm still thinking about how I can go from topic to project before dedicating myself to the topic..... Or... Idea.... Or whatever it is right now....

I'm finally talking with Savido -gasp-... And trying to sound like I am sure of what I'm talking about..... Let's see where this goies from here....

So, I'm Still Wondering if I can Make This Work....

So right now, I'm waiting for Savido... I might have to remind her that she wants to meet with me.... But, for now, I will use my time trying to see if I can really do anything in relation to this whole color thing...

I have discovered that people catagorize colors by representation... Not like that would really help me much, but it's interesting. Perhaps ones stereotypes of a color would make them feel a certain way twords it.

(http://www.color-wheel-pro.com/color-meaning.html)

(http://iml.jou.ufl.edu/projects/Fall05/rosenblatt/index.html)

And I have also found something in terms of interior design... Like, it will tell you that red will increase your blood pressure? or something like that. And it will tell you what colors are best for your interior based on what those colors normally generate emotion wise. So this information looks at the psycology veiw of it all...

(http://www.demesne.info/Improve-Your-Home/Choosing-Interior-Color.htm)

But I still don't know if it's possible to turn this into a project. . . . . .

It has been made into a project before, although I can hardly read it >_<
(http://clearinghouse.missouriwestern.edu/manuscripts/184.asp)

One Last Today.....

On the topic of color, I found something of intrest I guess..... I didn't have time to look through it enough... But.... Ehhhh...

(( http://www.colormatters.com/index.html ))

I don't think I will be able to make a project out of it.... But I'm tryng....
I'm trying to find a project and run with it.....
Honestly.....

It's Just Not Enough. . . . .

My second entry today... Right after the last one... Wow...

Anyways, I realize that my problem is that I'm an overly negative person and will find a way to shoot down any project idea, or no matter how much I like it, I will convince myself to hate it!!!!!

I don't have issues.... Not at all.....

But, I had another very vague idea... It involved a science project I did, involving how certain colors made a person feel... There were a million problems with that experiment though, because people came up with complex responses.... Perhaps I can limit it, or change the main focus.... Like, is it easier for a person to think in a white room? Or a blue room?

But, what good would that do people?
It doesn't help the community, so it doesn't help me get into college.....
It doesn't fit with a career.... so it doesn't mesh with my future....

So, again.... I have walked myself in a large circle.... And ended up right back where I started....
Dark void of floating-ness.... Woo....

Floating in the Dark Void ( Let's party =D )

OK, ignore my poor stab at something humorous or silly, but that's the only thing stopping me from spinning out into open space and crashing into the sun.

So, let me try this again. Nature, food, animals.... I was once thinking about doing something therapy like.... I used to want to be a shrink, but I don't thin I can handle the problems of others when I can't handle my own... And I'm not good at giving advice.... When I can't help people I become a massive train wreck...

So let's rule that one out....

Nature- Don't know what to plant where to have it help people and make it a project that doesn't conflict with the group project I am doing in ecology.... This ones close to being ruled out...

Food- Maybe not cooking food.... But something involving food? Yeah... That's pretty vague... Let's rule that one out...

I like writing, but I never finish what I write, too many people are writing for their grad projects.... Besides, my writing is horrible...
Just reading isn't going to get me anywhere either....

So yeah, I think I'm going to spiral out of control and crash into the sun.... Yay... Oblivion....

Let's continue...

I like science... but science and math go together hand in hand... and math is my worst subject.... I don't know what I would do science related either.....

I always wanted to know what makes a person different... Like, we're all made the same... right? well, what makes a person like Pepsi rather than coke? why does one person prefer something sweet, while their friend prefers something bitter? Yeah, that's another thing that's just a vague idea and wouldn't make it to being a project....

It's not like I ever finish anything anyways... I procrastinate, or worry abut failing to the point where I fail anyways. I'm currently in break down spazz mode... I don't know what I'm doing with my future, I don't know what I'm doing for this project.... And I'm supposed to choose soon... Wonderful....

There are so many ideas bouncing around this dark void with me... Yet they all seem just out of my reach.

My main issue...

Is that I don't know how to turn things into a project! Sure, I can put seeds in the ground... What good does that do???
And I'm sorry Ms. Savido, I'm trying not to type as much.... But I am really extreamly lost...
I have many intrests, but nothing I can turn into a project....
Even the ideas of my classmates are leading me to dead ends... I'm super stressed out and have waaaay to much floating around my head.

I'm feeling pressured.... Like I'm on some press for time.....

H E L P ! ! ! ! ! ! !

Ok, I have no direction.... At all.... I'm LOST... really LOST... I need HELP! but I don't know how you can help me when I have no idea what I need to begin with.... I've tossed several ideas around in my head and in my blog, but I can't attatch myself to any of it and I'm being pressured to choose!!!!

Joe threw an idea about planting tree's.... I don't think that would work because 1. I have to use MY MONEY and I don't have much of that 2. I know of no places that need tree's 3. I've never planted a tree and don't know how too.... 4. I might like tree's, but I don't feel much like planing them....
I want something I can be more dedicated to then placing a tree in dirt..... Thats why I thought about helping raise abandoned squirrels....

So I'm back to square one for the millionth time.... At least tell me if any of my ideas are decent or worth trying.... Or, help me expand my thought process....

My biggest problem is, I have NO OPTIONS, therefore I can't narrow them down. I think that just about every idea I think of for this project is crap and wouldn't work.

I don't even know where I'm supposed to put the link to our home journally thingy....

So I'm Pretty Much Back to Square One....

Ok... I am now back at square one by fretting over what I can do commuity wise that may help me with college.... I NEED something community wise, but with all of the skills and intrests I have, I don't think any of them can be community based. I have nothing that would help my future or me getting into college. So, as you can imagine I'm now flipping out over this project even more!

I am currantly looking at squirrels right now.... Squirrels are part of the community... Kinda... And they are cute and fluffy... I found something on squirrel rescue and rehabilitation by looking up squirrel diseases!
((http://www.squirrel-rescue.com/squirrel-diseases.htm))
So, that currantly has me looking at animal rehabilitation places that may have squirrels....

It's odd... But it's a start to something I can do... right? Sure, I like cats more than squirrels.... But how many people could say they helped raise a baby squirrel?

So far though I'm having no luck finding a rehabilitation center around here that accepts squirrels....

Breakthrough?

Ok, so when I last wrote... I was compleatly confused. And well, I still kinda am, BUT I have a few ideas and some new topics I may choose to use. (that rymes!)

Ok, first of all... I was thinking of writing a play. I stumbled upon a play I wrote last year set in City High (Yet it was mid-evil shakespear times) and included currant silly drama's all in old fashioned play speak... Reminds me of the Shakespear remake movie thing I saw "Love's Labor Lost" (I missed half of it)
BUT, Casey is writing a picture book... I would feel akward doing some writing project as well.... And what would I do? Hire people to act it out? I'm broke... Set design would be impossible... And what am I supposed to do? Shakespears dead... I can't interview him... I don't know any other inspiring playwriters who may be interested in my type of writing or plays.

Next, I was thinking about other topics I can expand on.
History
Love history, hate the class... I like expeirencing, seeing, feeling... Being a part of something that is nothing but a memory now....
I'm fasinated with the Holocuast.... But I don't think there's anything I can do with that... A re-inactment would be hard..... >_<

I like flowers... I'm gardening in Ecology soon... But... No....

I Was sort of interested in some of the topics on the senior project list... Like the ones involving animals... Or Japanese cooking.... I was thinking about perhaps dedicating myself to a culture... Learning to cook those dishes... dress the part.... Something like that.... I don't know.... I don't think that's much of a project...

-sigh- I'm just running around in circles... It doesn't help that my mind is going into a million different directions. This project alone is sending my mind into so many directions, add that to my normal stress and issues... I'm a wreck... But this isn't about me... It's about the project... But if that keeps me from my project, doesn't that make it a problem thats putting my project on halt? You do want to know everything..... SEE!!! Thats whats I enjoy... Being able to just Write, about ANYTHING!!!! Like whatever randimosity comes to mind, or perhaps even a serious thought... Or maybe a serious thought about something random!!! WHY CAN'T I MAKE THAT A PROJECT!!!!!

I wonder if rambling on like this will get me a bad grade.... It's parrt of my thought process though.... Arrgghhh... What do I love? What can I dedicate myself too that I can also find fun? What are my passions..... Sadly, I don't seem to have much of an idea myself.... I'm afraid I won't be able to pick anything.

I don't think there is much I can do...
So do me a favor... HELP ME!!!!!!!
Give me a suggestion, a gentle push in the right direction....
Gee, I sound like I'm talking to an invisable higher power or something....

Let the Bloging Begin?

Ok, first of all... Hello, welcome to my blog, I guess. My name is Kristen and I am required to do this for my school graduation project. I warn in advance, I have horrible spelling and a habit of typimg "..." .

Now, Graduation project... Basically, I have to find a topic I can get involved in and start a huge project on it... I think. So far, I am compleatly stressed out because I don't know what to do!!! I feel as if I'm getting chained down to something! That and I'm not sure of what to get chained down too!! Sure, I like reading, writing, and scieince... (Science that doesn't involve math!) but I can't really turn those into projects. So I'm a rambling mess right now! SAVE ME!!!

I'm supposed to talk about what I do in relations to the grad project, so.... Basically today, I created this -nods-. Not very eventful.... Now, if you'll excuse me and my horrible blogging skills for a momment, I am going to storm through what I am interested in and try to make some sort of connection...

I like

• Reading
• writing
• nature
• cats
• squirrels

I suspect that none of those will help me project wise though... I'm sure if I had a list of past projects people have done, I would have an easier time deciding what to do with it!... Just a thought... I guess....